I am so hurt and so depressed, I was introduced to a guy by my colleague wife, and we have been in a relationship for a year and few months now, he as not really been the committed one but I love him so much that despite all my effort to resist him was so difficult, have always been the one calling most, sometimes he might be all good to me and some times he will just change, and whenever I ask him about our relationship he will tell me for now is ok with another time he will tell me if he doesn’t not want me he won’t be wasting his time, I also chat with his sister, she assured me that he loves me and do talk about me well, that as a lady I shouldn’t relent I should keep disturbing as when are never ready until we make them ready, so I keep having hope it can work out between us so I call and keep persisting bcos I love him so very much that I can’t just explain it, so by September I was pregnant for him I told him about it, he said he was not ready for it neither is it in his plan but if I want to keep it I can go ahead he will only support me the best way he can but I should not later be putting pressure on him or telling him is suffering me, so I discussed with my friend she adviced I go for d and c, that he is never ready or else I will regret my decision and she can advice me to have and take care of the child alone as I don’t have the financial capability for now, so I decided to go for the d and c , wish he sent me money to get rid of it, after the d and c, he never call to ask for my health orhow am fearing, I was the one who later chat him that u can’t even check on me or something yet he didn’t reply 3days later he now called me that when did I start waiting for his call I was Sha angry so he begged me and promise to make it up to me, since then too have been the one calling I find it just difficult to resist him despite all he did to me,and another major challenge I have is since have have dandc I can’t sleep the emotional trauma was so much that is like am going to run mad it just keep coming to my mind, am so full of regret wish I could reversed hand of time , am not just myself am seriously loosing I can’t sleep eat can’t concentrate at work I just keep making mistake and the so called boyfriend is not there to comfort am just so emotionally down I need help don’t know what to do
