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Hello there! Thank you for an opportunity to share this. I experience the inability to express my pain or hurt, I just suck it in and move on but am afraid that has affected my feelings and thoughts towards people. What I go through right now started years ago when I couldn't share my pain and distress with anyone, I was either too scared to, or most times there was no one to share it with. Now all I do is run away from people when they hurt me, I give so much love when I find myself in a position to don't get any when I really need it. I grew up without a mother, my dad does'nt even know me well, my siblings bearly care so I grew up teaching myself most of what I am and know today. With what I have gone through in the past years, I find it hard to feel remorseful if I do something wrong because I know ( At worse I will be sent away) and that's because even when I didn't do anything wrong I still get to take the fall for everything and be the one to be left alone. It gets worse because I use to be very emotional about everything, talking about crying, thinking, loving extra etc. But after a particular incident in 2019 it all changed. Since then I have become so hardened that I now get worried about it, I don't know what to do because it gets worse by the day....right I am worried that I don't get worried when I should be worried. I also need help learning how to control my thoughts, my mind is so powerful.