Hi um where to begin….well I’m your average teen

Hi um where to begin….well I’m your average teen in an average family with an average life. My issues as I would like to call them starts with my family. I come from a family of 5; mom, dad, older brother and younger sister. Since I was little my dad was mostly busy with work and I barely got to know him on an emotional level but he tried and is an amazing father who would do anything for his family. Next we have my mom, a typical Nigerian woman filled with love for her family and a no nonsense attitude. My older brother who’s basically an asshole when he isn’t being nice. Finally my bitchy little sister who is basically Lilith the she-demon in disguise. Even though I live and interact with my family it still doesn’t stop the unending feeling of loneliness. So much that I actually got depressed for a long time with no one to share my woes with, to wipe my tears and tell me everything is gonna be alright. Sadness prevails in my life so much that I’ve gotten used to it you know, life sucks and no one cares about you so you gotta live it. Which is pretty much what I’m not doing. I wish I could say more, open myself up without feeling vulnerable but I can’t. Maybe later who knows when I finally remember what it feels like to be alive