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When I was a child, I don't know if I was molested...but I was exposed sexually. My parents didn't and still don't know about it but it happened. Whatever happened has now created a beast in me that watches pornography and masturbates like a maniac, I still do it in secret. It has been affecting me on so many levels. I am a spiritual person and A christian in fact, I Love God so much but it seems he Hates me. I see his love sometimes but other times, I wonder why he lete wake up again. Since I was 9years old, I always had a moment where I would cry to God begging him to free me from sexual slavery but till now ( I am 20 yrs old) I haven't gotten any help. I feel very inadequate in all aspects of my life, To make matters worse I am fat and I often refer to myself as ugly. All in all, I don't know what exactly is my problem, maybe I need someone to ask me some questions so I get a clearer picture of what my problem is . I just feel inadequate and unloved. The worst part is I can't confide in my Parents. Im a victim of my circumstance. HELP ME Please