When I was a child, I don’t know if I was molested…but I was exposed sexually. My parents didn’t and still don’t know about it but it happened. Whatever happened has now created a beast in me that watches pornography and masturbates like a maniac, I still do it in secret.
It has been affecting me on so many levels. I am a spiritual person and A christian in fact, I Love God so much but it seems he Hates me. I see his love sometimes but other times, I wonder why he lete wake up again.
Since I was 9years old, I always had a moment where I would cry to God begging him to free me from sexual slavery but till now ( I am 20 yrs old) I haven’t gotten any help.
I feel very inadequate in all aspects of my life, To make matters worse I am fat and I often refer to myself as ugly.
All in all, I don’t know what exactly is my problem, maybe I need someone to ask me some questions so I get a clearer picture of what my problem is . I just feel inadequate and unloved. The worst part is I can’t confide in my Parents. Im a victim of my circumstance. HELP ME Please
Anonymous
Hello God loves you and will always you have to consciously stop your bad habits God can’t do that for you and if you feel your body is not fine then you can try and work on yourself.
Gift Iwunze
Dear I understand you very much as I have been in similar circumstances and masturbation is a hard one to quit most times but try not to be so hard on yourself and take one step at a time….it all starts from you…..Do you have dreams?