When I was a child, I don’t know if I was molested…but I was exposed sexually. My parents didn’t and still don’t know about it but it happened. Whatever happened has now created a beast in me that watches pornography and masturbates like a maniac, I still do it in secret.
It has been affecting me on so many levels. I am a spiritual person and A christian in fact, I Love God so much but it seems he Hates me. I see his love sometimes but other times, I wonder why he lete wake up again.
Since I was 9years old, I always had a moment where I would cry to God begging him to free me from sexual slavery but till now ( I am 20 yrs old) I haven’t gotten any help.
I feel very inadequate in all aspects of my life, To make matters worse I am fat and I often refer to myself as ugly.
All in all, I don’t know what exactly is my problem, maybe I need someone to ask me some questions so I get a clearer picture of what my problem is . I just feel inadequate and unloved. The worst part is I can’t confide in my Parents. Im a victim of my circumstance. HELP ME Please
Anonymous
Hi friend yes you need someone to talk to you can get a professional counselor but before then God does not hate you he will not force you to change he is only going to guide you when you are willing to change and if you don’t feel good as you are fat then you can start a work out program or take some slim intakes.
Anonymous
Hi,there some steps you need to follow for you to come out from sexual slavery and you have taken one of the steps which is to tell yourself that you have an issue and the second step is to talk to a counselor,he or she will help you in the other stages because it takes a little time but certainly you will overcome.