I am about to turn 29 and I feel like I have been

I am about to turn 29 and I feel like I have been living with toxic family members for years. My mum and sisters are overprotective. Not too long ago my sister seized my laptop claiming that she is trying to help and that I am lazy. They keep forgetting that I was diagnosed with depression about 10 years ago. Anytime I bring up their behaviour, they guilt trip me. My mum even told one of the housegirls point blank that nothing shall come between her and her daughter. That was enough evidence to me to prove why she hates my boyfriend. They control aspects of my life right from when I was born. They are now pointing oit my inability to do basic house chores or take care of myself when their constant belittling has reduced me to nothing. My mum always tells me that people bully me because I am stupid and I purposely make myself look like an easy target forgettinh that she raised me to never talk back. I am no saint because I skipped classes twice and have bad grades. I forget stuff a lot and often space out. I often fear telling mummy or anyone stuff and actually regret telling my sisters about my blogging and writing ambitions. I also have a Youtube channel and when I told them, they were like “How can that make me money quickly?” They nag me about makinh momey forgetting that we are in a pandemic. Mh sister even told me today that I better not embarrass her after she gets me a job and insulted me after I walked away when they started talking about me. Their words make me suicidal and when people call them out, they start laughing and mockinh my mental health issues. I have not been officially diagnosed yet because my mum ia clearly trying to hold me back.