My name is Tee. I feel betrayed by my mother. I ha

My name is Tee. I feel betrayed by my mother. I have always known she loves me less than my other siblings. I am the fifth child out of six of my parents. 3 elder brothers and 1 elder sister with a younger sister. I thought she loved the boys because need special attention because of peer influence, My elder sister because she is the first girl, my younger sister because she is the last child but me, I only get attention when no one is home to help her. Today, my immediate brother beat me up for no reason and I get blamed for it. My mother told my other elder siblings that I instigated the fight but I was the one that was beat up and now swollen. I have always try to put my mother’s concern before my own and I thought maybe she just doesn’t show her love to me but today I found it wrong. I battled with strong depression last year and my mother was also part of it the reason but I am now just trying to find peace but it has been disrupted. I don’t want to live with her anymore. I also found out, I have no one to share my feelings to and everywhere is beginning to feel suffocating. What’s absolutely worst than this is that I always feel bad for getty angry, so maybe tomorrow when I calm down, I will convince myself that I have no right to write this and probably delete this post.