Best way I can describe how in feel is defeated! Seems everything is going great. I have a great job, well not really. I’d say a well paying job in a very toxic environment. I have a wife and 4 lovely children. We recently got our Canadian PR but I’m scared. It seems nothing brings true satisfaction. I actually feel bad for complaining because a lot people have it worse but I’m not just in happy place. I feel like I’m no good. My marriage isn’t the best. I have a great wife but we’re not friends. I’d rather spend time alone. Had an abusive childhood and haven’t really recovered from the ruins. A typical sepulcher. Looks great on the outside, rotten on the inside. Sometimes I feel like talking to someone but there’s no one to talk to.
Anonymous
Hi sir actually no one has it better,no one is really satisfied because of status and possession one can only be happy with a conciousness of heart and be satisfied with every thing we have.
Well you can still talk to a professional counsellor on the menu bar.
Anonymous
Your feelings are justified and I understand feeling you do not have the right to complain but you do.
The reason you feel defeated is because you are not fulfilled with your life.
The accomplishments are nothing if you do not feel fulfilled.
The truth is for this to end, you will have to do things that will seem irrational to the normal thinking mind,things that may look ridiculous and downright crazy.
You know what to do but are not conscious of it yet.
Ask yourself in the mirror everyday (to your hearing if you have the privacy to do so), what do I have to do to …
And promise yourself you will do whatever it takes (speak this with authority and to your hearing).
The answer will come to you,follow your intuition no matter how scary it may seem and believe that you are doing what you need to do.
Wish you the best.
Anonymous
To follow up with my previous comment, if you can answer these questions, I may provide you some truth serums if you are willing to take it.
What is it about your wife, what was the situation surrounding meeting her and getting married to her?
How do you feel your childhood abuse is playing out in your adult life?