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I have been feeling jealous and envious of some people close to me, as a human, I understand that these feelings should come, but I Don't know why, with me I feel like I these people don't deserve what they have and then I start questioning my worth and how well of these people are, I compare myself to them and then a sickening feeling of hatred towards them fills my heart, I start acting strange, putting them of, insulting them and even gossip about them and these people are very close to me, I don't know what to do, I need help cause after I think about the sickening hatred feeling,it mostly comes with thoughts to kill them off, and then guilt which springs up to a serious depression. Please I need help