I feel so lost. No friends. Working a job I hate. No relationship. No one who gives a damn about me except my mother & sister.
The world is lonely. I have been battling social anxiety for 13years now and I’m 26years. While I’ve been battling depression for 14years.
I have nervous breakdowns once in a while, but now it keeps reoccuring, I can’t control it any longer. If I could die now and be assured of heaven, I’d gladly leave this lonely world.
There’s nothing for me here.
I’m lost, and I’m scared of living life alone, broke and broken by all my flaws & all that hinders me in life.
I didnt have the best life growing up. My parents despised each other, I grew up around a lot of quarellibg, fighting & verbal abuse. I don’t know it means to have a father. I hate my father. So much. And I think they shouldnt have brought me into a loveless world.
That’s why I’ve found it difficult have interpersonal relationships with men. Plus my social anxiety. I cant even explain it.
I would stop here cos I’m so mentally fagged out