I’m writing with tears in my eyes….I’ve never se

I’m writing with tears in my eyes….I’ve never searched for a therapy all my life but this one has really gotten to me.
So I was convinced by a friend to join an investment company….which i did
I was convinced by one of the CEO’s that its not crashing and they are here to stay
So i invested my schhool fees…1 million naira
Its a private school in Nigeria
I have never slept with a man for money as a matter of fact I’m a virgin a final year law student
Because i needed money to tak care of myself
Get myself a phone and start a business that was why i invested such huge amount because i felt so intimidated by my friends using good phones, doing business which of course were given to them by men…
Right now I feel stupid
Mind you i prayed so much before investing this money…thinking that God was in control…now see what I’m passing through
I now regret being a good girl all my life…is it even worth it?
I cry everyday in my room then smile outside
I can’t even concentrate on my project
My exams are next month….
God knows I’m sooo depressed
I needed to talk to someone but i couldn’t because they will all insult me for putting my fees
God knows i can’t bear this anymore
Its too much for me….I’m dying slowly…
I fall sick almost all the time
Because of depression
God knows I’m going to give up sooner or later