Hi I think I self sabotage I often overthink things and not express myself and let people take advantage of me. I think it’s also victims narcissm I intentionally push people away when they get closer…
… I also feel like I’m not growing mentally like I grew up too fast I was always more mature then my peers which made me very depressed at an early age I practiced self harm even when I was little now I’m older it seems everyone else is more mature than I am…like why am I this depressed people who have more issues than I am aren’t depressed like my life isn’t so bad but why I thought maybe because of my personality I’m melancholic but it doesn’t make sense.. I want healthier relationships I’ve sabotaged most of the ones I had I can’t seem to draw the line between withdrawal and building up walls and over sharing when I find someone I trust.. I also can’t accept love it’s a bizzare concept I say I accept in the surface but deep down I can’t I’m scared I might never find the right person.
Anonymous
Woah…Try to take it easy on your self..In situations like this don’t blame yourself for everything happening around you.. Getting matured too early is not a bad thing and pushing people away isn’t had either..you just have to learn to take anything that comes your way as it is..I push most of my friends away also and more keeps coming..Try to understand and be yourself.. Maturity is not a sickness take advantage of it…