I didn’t get any job all through the past weeks J

I didn’t get any job all through the past weeks
Just at home doing nothing,
More like wasting away,
….while other are getting on with their lives.
Then I didn’t get the admission for the masters program.
Dreamed of marrying early and now I have zero excitement about my coming birthday.
No friends,
Can’t share what I’m going through with my family,
No one really cares much about me
My dad is somewhat absent in my life
I’m just always lonely and sad
I Get to pray and feel better at times but then other times I just cry
I feel like I’m slightly depressed and have nobody
…well maybe because everyone thinks I’m fine and have my life all put together
Meanwhile everything is just falling apart and I’m just so so so tired of it all
I always try
I try to do my best but it’s not always enough
I know God sees my pain and all, but can it just all go away already 🤦🏼‍♀️