Hi everyone this is sure going to be a long one..

Hi everyone this is sure going to be a long one.. first I will begin with my symptoms which includes

Feeling of anxiety and sometimes very overwhelming
Depression
Hopelessness
Very poor at decision making
Isolation
Impulsive Behavior which includes, Anger, Crying, shouting I don’t care who ever.
Inability to focus for long
Easily distracted
Relying on alcohol and drugs to make me feel better.
My emotions are out of control
Sleeping difficulties
Memory problem
Inability to hold a train of though for long
Zoning out
Death is the solution at last. At least that’s what I feel

I’ve learned a lot about this condition and came to the conclusion that’s it’s definitely ptsd.

My mother died when I was 10, we were very close then, my dad isn’t a very emotionally balanced person himself so ever since I’ve always felt neglected,, sometimes I wish someone can just ask me how I am feeling so I can pour my heart out to them .. it makes me feel better and at the same times vulnerable because my anxiety kicks in and I have doubts if I can trust anyone. I always have a feeling of shame,guilt and regret especially when am being successful at something than others. I feel sorry for them which makes me feel bad and I don’t know why because deep within I know it’s none of my business.

I’m currently on SSRI, setraline which helped for a while but I realized that when I spoke to my pharmacist about how I was feeling it made me feel ok like I don’t need medications and all I need is someone I can talk to

It goes on and on

I can’t really afford therapy now .. so I need someone who we can chat on WhatsApp or make video call. Yu can drop your number in the comment and I will contact you

Thanks for your time