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This is my first time doing this so I don’t know where to start from. I struggle with pornography and Masturbation. Not necessarily because I am addicted to it and I do it everyday, no. The urge only comes during certain periods of my menstrual cycle when hormones are high. Sometimes I can ignore it other times I can’t and when I submit to the feeling I feel shame and hurt afterwards. I am Catholic so the shame is even worse. I have a whole sexual history with this and it started when I was little. I try to find out why this stuck with me. I don’t know if it’s because I was introduced to it by my friend’s brother and my cousin when I was way younger than them and I keep trying to stop but I succeeded for a while and when I am in my lowest ( because I have suffered depression and body dysmorphia and emotional eating), I go right back and start hurting myself again and feeling like a fraud of a Christian and disappointment to God. This is a little excerpt from my life struggles. I am currently hurting from just masturbating and I feel awful especially now that I have a boyfriend and I feel like a fraud in the relationship and don’t know if I can tell him .