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I ve totally forgot how playful,intelligent,how I relate with people and carry myself like a princess being the only girl in my family…I was 9 when I gained admission into a boarding secondary school,I had a lot of friends I was born and brought up in an Adventist church..while growing up me nd my mom was never close though I never felt bad about it cause I ve my dad at my side while she had my brothers..I over heard my parents one day discussing abt my high pay school fee,I felt bad that I told them I wanna be a day student no longer boarding student;I lied to them I don’t like being a boarding student in other for the pay to less..everything went on fine till my parents decided to take us out from d Adventist church to a prophetic church.my mom on d other hand evangelised to a neighbour nd brought him to church d pastor there ordained d neighbour to also b a pastor I always complained to my parents how I don’t like d church but they never listened..the pastor which was my neighbour nd was ordained is Osaro Omstrong Uwadia..I usually had friends then who come to d house but dis useless man Osaro will embarrass me in front of them nd also embarrass my guest, my mom is always at home she won’t say anything because he is a pastor..the man was so free to come to d house at he please that a day he came to my room without knocking and saw me nacked I was 14 then my mom said nothing about it when I complained rather she will say what do I ve that am covering😪he one time called me on phone nd started saying sexual stuff to me I was confuse I told him I will tell my parents but b4 I could he told my mom that am possess am a witch😭😭I know I was so stubborn while growing up but ‘witch’🥺my mom started calling me a witch anytime I act stubborn at a time she told d Osaro to beat me up..I was flogged like a real witch with wire😭😭I can never forget..I started staying on my own nd wish to die.. the Osaro will call me and continue saying sexual stuff to me I have no choice than to listen..I went to my parents room one day to check all document if they were truly my parents but they were😢I started going down in my studies nd even interacting with people cox I felt they all see me as a witch, one day my mom came to me I thought she wanted to say something nice to me but instead she asked me directly begging me to tell her if I change to any animal while I sleep😭😭I couldn’t answer I just told her I don’t know cox at dis point I was already accepting the fact dat am truly a witch..at night I will b scared to sleep thinking maybe I will change to something else😢😭when I was 16 I tried to pass my waec for me to leave d house to the university at all cost..I always pray to God that I don’t want to b with my family anymore… when I gained d admission my mom nd dad got separated cox my dad was lied to abt my mom our properties was sold everything went down in just a month my family shattered..now my mom is trying to gain my affection she wants me to tell her anything.. it’s like d story of me once being a witch left her memory so easily but how can I forget…recently my mom got to know that I ve chest disorder she was so angry telling me she got to know I ve such recently but in my mind I laughed because I had always had this issue while I was 9 but she never payed attention when I told her then,I had to take care of myself nd not b a burden 😣summary of it all is am 25 now am a good daughter to my mom I try to provide all her need but the truth is I don’t love her, how can I love and forget everything??