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Hello,
I have been married for the last 18 months, and I have a son from the relationship. I don’t know what is going on with my life, we have a fight with my wife almost every day since the first day we started life together.
The first disagreement started during our honeymoon, that time my father passed away and we couldn’t have normal honeymoon such as no vacation and other good times.
We moved to my house having some dissatisfaction and we continue to disagree on trivial issues. She blames me for so many reasons though I apologized for things that I feel it is my problem, but she never stopped remembering them and keep blaming.
Naturally am not very emotional man but I try to fulfill her needs, I do research and ask people how to be better man, but she didn’t give me the chance to be. This constant fight and discontent are making me sick and dull, I have no enthusiasm any more in keeping this marriage.
Most of the time am away from home because of my job and when I come back I plan many things to make her happy, but I fade up after few days with the behavior that I face and stop everything and back to work with sick heart. I know my job is also affecting me but currently I can’t change career because in the country I am living now finding a good paying job like I have is impossible.
It is because of my job that my family resides in the center of a beautiful city, everything she needs she can get it within 15 minutes max but this nothing to her.
I fill terrible to think about the future of my son; my dream was to have happy family because I grew up in broken family and I suffered a lot mentally and physically. I was thinking I am going to redeem what happened to me as kid by raising my child with love care and support.
Currently I don’t know what to do, I love my son what to give him the best shot a father can give to his son and I know I never had happy time in my life time as kid, as boy and now am I going to continue been unhappy as a man?
Regards