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My relationship life has been a mess! Am just 20 years and have been through so much heart break already. I was in a relationship with a guy I really loved my first love precisely for 3 years and some month,he was everything every lady could dream of until he stated that he wants to get married to me I loved him but still had to disagree because of religious differences, he's a Christian igbo and am a Muslim...my parents will never approve of it. He was a very understanding guy and we agreed to breakup since he wasn't getting any younger and has a master's with nice job while am still in my 2second year in uni ....I really went through alot and still haven't healed from it , sometimes my body refuses to processs the kind of rest I need,I got sleepless nights and all with no one to talk to tho sometimes he checks up on me and whenever he does I feel so happy 😊..fast forward to when he got a girl friend which we both agreed he has to get one whom he will get married to,she blocked me on his what'sapp cos she was scared he still loved me ,he later unblocked me after I told him to do so. All this while I was very vulnerable and started getting very close with my cousin he gives me advice attention and all infact for a while I forgot about my ex...things was going on fine till I started liking him,he will always call me everyday ,call me pet names and infact was very romantic and sweet.... something led to the other and we had sex....I felt soooo bad cos he was my cousin and that was incest I tried to stop doing stuffs with him but he is always very charming and I fall everytime even after trying not to I just can't help it After every sex I always think about it cos he is very good at sex ...but he changed along the line he no longer really cares for me like he use to ,started keeping many female friends and doing stuffs with them too I know all this but whenever he calls I see myself running to him ,he is that toxic and I know am that fragile...he put up a charade to take advantage of my vulnerability and am so sad cos I still love him