I feel like everything is wrong with me. I have social anxiety and depression, I suffer from serious suicidal and intrusive thoughts, I’m a pushover and people pleaser and no one seems to care about me. I’m doing a course that I hate and I already have a carryover in it. I haven’t told my parents yet because they’re going to be highly disappointed in me. I’m turning 21 in March and I have no idea where I’m headed in life. People mock me and see me as a stupid and naive girl but they don’t know I suffer from this cursed anxiety disorder that just can’t let me live a normal life! I cry myself to sleep almost every night and I’m lonely. I don’t have much friends and I don’t think I’ll ever find someone that understands me. Honestly…I don’t belong in this world. I don’t even know how to help myself. I’m living a shameful life. I’m supposed to be better than this.