I was abused as a child and lived my childhood in incest and sexual immorality. I grew up, confessed, forgave was forgiven but currently I struggle with masturbation and lust. By the grace of God, I am getting better, but my deepest concern is in receiving and giving purest form of love.
I am 26 and never been in a long-lasting relationship. I can’t afford counseling yet, but I deeply want to connect with someone. I want to receive love and give love. I want to be expressive and not overly defensive and on my guard all the time. I am tired of it all.
Awaiting your kind response ❤️
Anonymous
I am sorry to hear about the traumatic experiences you had to go through as a child. It is admirable that you have taken steps towards healing and forgiveness, and I want to acknowledge your strength and courage because it takes a lot to move forward after enduring such traumatic experience.
You may face difficulties with establishing confidence and intimacy in relationships as a result of your past experiences, which is understandable. It is crucial to keep in mind that healing is a process and that it will take time to resolve these concerns. Recovery is a journey, and it may take a while sometimes.
Processing your emotions and fostering relationships with others might be facilitated by talking about your experiences and feelings with someone you trust, like a trusted friend or family member. Counselling can be expensive, but you can also try joining a support group online where you can get access to volunteer counsellors as you work on affording paid sessions.
learning to love, trust and build a healthy connection in a relationship will take time but it is not impossible despite your traumatic experiences. Take care of yourself as you journey to heal and grow.
Anonymous
You should never have gone through that. You should have been protected. Everyone failed you and they’re failing every other child out there. I wish I could say this is an isolated event but it happens more often than we’d like to admit. I’d wish you all the best but you can’t wish PTSD away