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I'm a 24 year old female and have a low self esteem, among my friends and family members I'm the least beautiful because of this I tend to study harder, so even if I'm not the prettiest at least I should be the smartest, but being smart doesn't attract men first, it's beauty, always beauty, if I'm walking with my friends, they get all the attention and I'll be at the sideline, waiting for them, just earlier this year I have three invitations to my girlfriends weddings, of which I'm older than two of them, I'm not even in a relationship and because I have this revelation that I'm going to end up single and alone, I'm trying to force myself to like someone who I know on a normal I won't talk to, just because he's interested in me, I just don't want to be alone and I want to feel beautiful, I'm always the last girl to be admired in the group, I'm just the spare ugly friend they bring along, I hate it, I hate this, I just want to be loved, be called beautiful, be chosen first....is it too much to ask?