I feel empty, not sad, not anger, nothing. I can’t bring myself to do things I used to enjoy like writing. It used to be my coping mechanism and a way to fill the hole inside my but I can’t even do that no matter how hard I try. Lately, I’ve been having pretty bad depressive episodes and I’ve been wishing for death more and more. I hate that I feel this way but it’s the only way I feel lately. The worst thing is I can’t talk to anyone about it, they won’t understand. I don’t feel like living. Besides, what do I live for?
Anonymous
Feeling empty and lacking motivation or interest in activities you used to enjoy can be symptoms of depression. With proper care and help from the right people you can learn ways to handle this mental illness.
It’s concerning that you feel like you can’t talk to anyone about your feelings because you think they won’t understand you, but it’s important to reach out to someone you trust like a friend, close family member or a mental health professional; they are trained to listen and provide support, and they can offer you options for treatment, such as therapy or medication.
In the meantime, there are some things you can try to help improve your mood. Practicing self-care activities like exercise, getting enough sleep, eating healthy, and engaging in activities you enjoy can help boost your mood.
You deserve to receive help and support during this time. Remember that you have value and worth as a person, even if you’re struggling with depression. While it may be difficult to see it now, there are things to live for and things that can bring you joy and fulfillment. It may take time and effort to find those things, but it’s worth it to keep trying.