I am strong when it comes to helping people, I have always wanted to be loved. I never saw life this way, I never knew family will turn out to be like this. Despite am married to the humblest lady on earth I feel alone. I have lost hope. Am hopeless. Ending my life has since been my desire since I was a kid. But I have been fighting it, but my strength is perishing. Suicidal urge keeps growing deeply in me.
I am a total failure in all ramifications.
Death is just a way to escape my predicaments. Am 😞 sorry.
Anonymous
It is sad to know you have been dealing with such heavy burden alone almost all your life but you should note that you are not alone and there is help available to you.
Firstly, it is important you share with your wife how you have been feeling; you might also consider speaking with a close family member or a friend. Talking to someone you trust about what you have been dealing with alone will help lift the burden of carrying it alone, it will help you find closure and feel less alone. Also, you need to seek the help of a licensed therapist too. They will help you trace the root of these emotions and find ways to help you manage them.
Lastly, avoid isolating yourself from events, activities you enjoy. Build a more positive mind set and try to shut out any negative thoughts you may have. Stay hopeful because with hope comes change and i am certain you will be better.