i always believe that life has taken more from me than he has giving, first my health, then the thing that made me a man, and now is fighting for my legs. i use to be strong, lively, lovely, positive, and a friendly person. despite the fact that life defeated me in the battle of genotype and my manhood, but i lost all that feature when he drag me again to the battle field for my legs. i have been battling osteonecrosis also known as avascular necrosis (AVN) for the past three years now, i see myself drifting into a dark shadow when i knew i was losing the battle to AVN because all the doors i knock for help were shut against me. friends disappear, family members start seeing me as a walking coups, i became a liability to myself, i cry every night and day and i am miserable and frustrated, every atom of being positive in me is empty and the only option i consider now is suicided. i am just waiting for my birthday to end it all. thanks to life, he won.
Anonymous
I am sorry to hear that you are going through such a difficult time. It sounds like you have been through a lot of challenges with your health. It can be tremendously challenging to be living with a chronic pain and disease especially if you feel alone in your struggles.
However, I want to encourage you to keep fighting and to seek out help and support. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem, and there is always hope for things to get better, even when it doesn’t feel that way.
Even though it may not feel like it now, there are people who care about you and want to help you. I strongly advise you to get in touch with a mental health professional or a chronic disease support group. They can offer you coping mechanisms, emotional support, and tools to aid in managing your pain both physically and emotionally.
Don’t let your illness define or limit you. You are still capable of achieving every great thing you have ever wanted; it doesn’t matter if you have to do it in a different way than you imagined.
Please know that you are not alone. Life may be difficult at times, but it is also full of possibilities and opportunities for growth and happiness. Keep fighting and don’t give up on yourself, there’s always a chance for things to improve for the better.