I have been in love with this guy for the past 3years as time goes on, he treats me shitty insult me, but I still love him most times he doesn’t even have my time for me to talk to him. so I meet this guy recently he had my time gave me money, so I spent time with him mostly and I feel in love with him, but I still love my boyfriend.
we had sex like five times, the last time he had sex with him he made me feel like he was using me. anytime he comes over, he has sex with me and then leaves. he doesn’t even talk to me anymore he just wants to be having sex with me.
My boyfriend somehow found out there was this guy but didn’t know if we had a thing and he refused to believe we didn’t have a thing; now me and my boyfriend have been having issue since he knew about this guy.
I don’t know what to do. sometimes I cry, I always want to be by myself sometimes I look for something to injure myself getting addicted to drugs I honestly need someone to talk to and always ready to listen.