As a little child, I was sexually molested by people who I trusted and had to conceal it because of shame. This affected me as a young adult because I had to deal with anxiety, depression and trauma. I have constantly struggled to be a responsible adult but kept facing rejection. I’m not able to keep friends because I’m being seen as awkward, and unintelligent. Societal pressure have made me make a lot of unwise decisions especially in relationships which cost me my life savings and most recently my health as well.I keep meeting people who play down on my painful experiences and take advantage of my trauma. I found myself in a relationship with a man who encouraged me to get pregnant for him and denied me and even went ahead to torment me diabolically with his new girlfriend so I could die with the pregnancy just to prove that my pregnancy is a hoax despite the obvious signs and symptoms of a pregnant woman, I survived but had a stillbirth but humiliated because my baby wasn’t given a chance at life, from being a healthy young lady managing herself, I am now faced with all the gynecology disorders as a result of a complicated pregnancy. I just pray God helps me survive this season of humiliation
Anonymous
I understand the painful and traumatic experiences that you have endured. So I applaud your courage for being able to share it here.
Sexual abuse and trauma can be overwhelming and disorienting. It is important to remember that you are not alone and that there are resources available to help you navigate this difficult time.
Seeking the support of a therapist or counselor can be a great step towards recovery. They can provide a safe space to process your experiences, develop coping mechanisms to help you have a better life. They can also help you address the underlying issues that may be hindering your relationships and decision-making.
In addition to seeking professional help, self-care is imperative. Engage in activities that bring you joy and tranquility. Taking care of your physical health and remember that healing from trauma is a gradual process, and everyone’s journey is unique. Be patient and compassionate with yourself as you navigate this challenging journey. Reaching out to trusted friends and family members who can provide support and understanding can also be helpful.
Also, put in mind that you will find true love with the right person, who will love you love you and appreciate you with all of your scars and imperfection. So, try to heal and move on from this man who has hurt you.
You are a survivor, and it is possible to move forward and rebuild your life. Keep seeking the support you need and deserve, and may you find the strength to heal and grow.