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I am confuse if I am making the right decision, I am married for 2 years with a son , I've been coping with my ' husband' because of I feel a separated parents matters in a child's life ( a child deserves to have both fatherly and motherly love) when I was pregnant, my husband started was always complaining of why I left my previous job, he comes back very late most times and tends to pour anger on me, at times he locks me out of the house and owns the door at will, after I gave birth, he started body shaming me( I use to be a size 10 now a size 12/14) talking about how his girlfriend's use to refer me as a problematic person saying I don't have what those girls have, I don't have the money they have, I need to see what they have in their shop etc. I stayed back still because of my son, countless times his sister comes around to settle out quarrels. So, he got back home one faithful night and dragged me out of the house naked, I managed to enter, work a dress and went back him so he started hitting me. I got angry and said this is the end, I carried my baby and left the house that night it was almost 12 midnight. After 4 months of separation, we were called to be talked to and he denied ever laying his finger on me saying he regretted ever marrying me saying j want to kill him (owing to the fact that I'm always looking for something to hold for self-defense) whenever he comes around and I feel he would hit me. I'm confuse on the headway.