Hi Truthshare, I hope whoever reads this is very much okay and happy. The last time I was here, I was self harming and very much suicidal but this year is different. I bagged multiple certifications, got a scholarship that I chickened out of because I was scared, and I am to get my certification for my BSC degree next month.
It’s very much fair to say life has been good. I made new friends, had a stronger bond with the old ones and reconciled with many.
Life has always had his ups and downs and it’s time to talk about the down part. I have been in a toxic relationship for like 3 years and I always leave but I always find myself going back there because it was first solid relationship. The one that it felt comfortable being with at the time but now I don’t see myself with him moving forward. I realized I just settled for the attention I got from him at the time and also his personality and I called it love. I lost my aura and I lost my true self in this relationship. On a journey to find myself back, it’s time to end the relationship but it’s breaking my heart doing that because right now, I see him as a close friend and not a romantic partner and genuinely speaking, I don’t want to lose the friendship. Is this the part where life is not fair to me ? and I chose the wrong path and it’s time to face the consequences? I will more than grateful if I can talk to someone about it or if I can get any advice on what to do. Thank you so much for reaching out Truthshare.xxxxx