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My boyfriend loves me so much and I started dating him for that sole reason even though I just cared for him but wasn’t sure I loved him, but with hopes that I’d fall in love when we start. 10 months down the line I’ve still not grown to love him, it’s just not coming, I lie about my emotions, me loving him back and all just to make him not feel like he’s the only one. When we make out and all, I most times zone out and can’t wait for it to be over.   I thought I could fake it till I make it (fall in love with him) but it’s just not there, and I don’t like how it makes me feel. I don’t want to lose him cos of fear of me not finding someone that would love me as much but at the same time I’m not at peace with myself and I’ve been forcing things that ought to come naturally and it’s tiring me out, I’m not at peace with how I’m lying to him, and I know I can’t keep up for long cos the truth would always come out. I’m so anxious and scared about this, pls what do I do?