I’m tired, I’m depressed nothing seems to be going on well for me. I’m financially down and live off of collecting from loan apps and paying off almost every week just to get by. Have a friend going for a surgery soon and trying to help raise money for it.
The person I got together with in a relationship just a month back who seemed so perfect from the start really is not perfect. And he decided to break up with me just 2 days over a mere argument we both had. I thought he was going to be better than all the other people I dated but alas! He turned out same even though I gave my possible best when we were together, but he did not appreciate.
And he decided to leave just when I started getting so attached to him and I’m literally breaking in pieces here. Lost a friend earlier this year and a host of other people I knew. I thought July/august were the worst months of my life this year till September came! I’m tired and both Nigeria and my family aren’t also helping matters also, they create more drama and pressure in my life. I look around, looking for who to talk to, to vent to but everyone has a thing or more going on in their lives and I don’t want to use mine to pressure them.
Yesterday was a very bad day for me.
And it made me start contemplating suicide. I mean, what’s left in life for me? Even if I don’t kill myself, with the rate at which young people my age and more die these days, I’d definitely follow so why not make it easier and just do it myself so I can be relieved of this pain? It’s too much💔 I don’t know Ben have much confidence in myself cos of how I look. I am plus sized and people tend to make jokes and all about it. Most times I ignore it but a lot of times, it really gets to me. I’m tired💔