Well, I see myself as a disobedient child cause how well could I described myself after doing something so awful. I promised myself I would not be one of those girls. I hoped I had thought this through. I didn’t think of my parents and my siblings before doing it. I’m a liar and I stupidly believed a liar. Look what it had gotten me. Sleepless nights, overthinking, unable to focus on my studies, and my exam is on the 27th of this month.
I feel like a disgrace and a disappointment among my peers. Only if I could turn back time and undo my mistakes. Others are living a perfect, holy and pure life here I am trying to turn back time. I’m jealous of their lives. It’s something I could have avoided. I love my mom. I pray for God’s forgiveness. I’m regretting my actions I hope she (mom) forgives me I hope I forgive myself. I hope I’m not pregnant. I’m just a 100-level student and I have no help but myself. What will I do if my mom finds out. My life is a mess.