hey it’s me again I guess it never left it’s been there I just pushed it deep down and blocked it with other thoughts I admit that I’m struggling and that I need help honestly there’s nothing more I want than to be happy to live a normal life to be able to walk freely on the streets and not wonder if people think I look weird or if they were gossiping about me, I just wanna live a normal life be close to my family stop pushing away my friends and have a life but it’s been hard I can’t stop thinking about how useless and worthless I am how I’m always the problem how I don’t seem to please anyone I’m just there I wish I could end it all you know just take off and go somewhere far like an island with just 20 people and live the rest of my fucking life there but I guess I can’t I’m too broke can’t even afford to buy my own data honestly I hope it gets better I hope one day I don’t have to wake up and think about how my life sucks I hope one day I wake up and I’m genuinely happy and ready to start the day I hope one day I’ll look back at this moment and be glad that I kept going and that I didn’t give up, I just hope it’s not too late I hope I can get out soon cause everyday it’s pulling me in deeper and deeper and I’m afraid I’ll cave in I’m afraid I won’t be able to fight anymore
Truthshare
It sounds like you’re going through a really tough time right now, and it’s incredibly brave of you to reach out and express how you’re feeling. Remember, it’s okay to struggle, and it’s okay to ask for help. You’re not alone in this, and there are people who care about you and want to support you through this difficult period. you should considered reaching out to a counsellor who can provide professional support and guidance. They can help you work through these feelings and develop coping strategies to navigate through this challenging time. You can also try looking a job to assist yourself financially.
Remember tough time don’t last only tough people do.
Juliet
Please don’t say that, ma’am. These are negative thoughts trying to stagnate you. I am sure there are people like you who are willing to connect. Sometimes, I feel misunderstood and withdrawn too. It sucks to feel that way, but I have learned to accept myself for who I am. That’s what makes me unique. I am sure the same goes to you too.
Anonymous
Thank you I no longer feel this way although it’s not easy Im working through it in my own way and I hope with time I can overcome it