From West Africa Nigeria where the culture is different, somethings that should be taken seriously are been pushed away by their religious and past experiences.
I once told my parents I want to kill myself that I am feeling very low feeling depressed. They didn’t taken me seriously because a child of God cannot be suicidal or because of their past experiences they feel nothing should be making depressed because they provide food shelter and small money for me so why should I be depressed.
They will say in their time they didn’t have what I have and they didn’t think of depression.
I still feel low sometimes
I cut myself deep and hide them.
I get misunderstood
I am trapped in my home where I am not allowed to feel some type of way because God and past experiences of my elders didn’t feel that way.
So I am a zombie
Following my elders footsteps not mine.
I am trying to break out but Life is a bitch sometimes.
I am trying to make it out of this trap called home to build mine cos I don’t want my children to feel this heart aches I feel everyday.
Anonymous
You shouldn’t hide your feelings, they are alive and can control your health and choices. It’s good you spoke up.
Even if you can’t count enough good memories , or envisage the bright hope ahead of you, you should know you are not a spontaneous organism , or an error. You are an important member of this Earth , and your life is precious.
There is more to life than how you feel , and in time as you get enlightened you’d get to see that your life is precious
Anonymous
Why are you saying trying?
‘Trying to break free…’
Don’t try do. You have one life, only one. Do not waste it trying to fit into a mold they created for you. Do you and let everybody adjust. You can do this, I know you can. I too want to move out of my family home, I feel unwanted and the environment is too toxic. I used to feel sorry for myself, why don’t they care about me and stuff like that iscwhat I kept asking myself. See ehn there are people out there who you will mean the works to and who will take your feelings seriously. Forget what your parent says or what the society says and find your own happiness.