I’ve never been in a relationship but I’ve always

I’ve never been in a relationship but I’ve always got girls I do like. Now this one is different because I’m suddenly caught in a state of love with a lady. I will be sincere here by saying from my heart to my soul I’m seriously in love with this girl and I’m even preparing to make her my wife even though I’ve not even asked her out yet. Now the problem is I do get this feeling that makes me feel my love is against my will and that makes me find a means to quarrel with her just to distance myself but the truth is I’d never be happy till I go back to her. seeing her alone makes me happy like really really happy. truth is i dont even know what dating really is and i believe loving is hard. any advice please