If something from your past triggers you and causes you to react, it means it has not been dealt with.
What you need to do is integrate your past. Call it and face it. Deal with it. It’s not going to be easy. You have to force yourself to think about it no matter how unpleasant and look at the root of it.
You can understand What, when, and how it happened and not understand WHY.
The WHY helps you deal with it.
Sending love to everyone.
M🧡