Hi, I lack self esteem .I feel like i have alot to

Hi,
I lack self esteem .I feel like i have alot to say but dont know how to put it, well i have a very low self esteem cause of my body.I dont know if I’m a beautiful girl and my body spoils it all.I have alot of facial hair and body hair,like alot .. All over my body,i have a big head,i have broad shoulders,like im huge and im fat.It just kills me slowly every night thinking about it.I needed someone to talk to,so i spoke to my best friend about how i feel,but she kills my esteem the more by reminding me everyday of how fat and big my head is, at first I thought it was funny,but she started insulting in public sometimes in her boyfriend presense.I feel sad and lonely, will be glad if i can get a reply.