Pressure, stress and the every day hullabaloos…

Pressure, stress and the every day hullabaloos…

There are days when I just don’t want to do anything. I don’t want to work, don’t want to pray, don’t want to talk, don’t want to think. I just want to be left alone! I want to get lost in a mundane task where there is no pressure to deliver, where I am not disappointing or letting anyone down. Everyone seems to need me for something. The responsibility is suffocating and when I deliver I’m let empty and they just keep coming back.

I feel guilty sometimes. I enjoy what a lot of people lack, people that can and do depend on me for work and family. But some of them come across as leeches, they keep sucking and sucking and never give anything! I feel so used 😭😭😭😭 I’m tired. I am exhausted.

There are days I want appreciation but most days I want to be taken care off. I feel like I take care of everyone and they seem to think I am supernatural. I want to be babied also.

I don’t think I’m depressed all I know is that I am happier when I’m left alone with my thoughts