I don’t even know what to write Uhmmm most times

I don’t even know what to write

Uhmmm most times I’m depressed, it’s almost becoming a habit
I can never be happy a whole full day
Anger, depression n loneliness has taken better part of.
Alot is faulty in my life, no friends, th e only thing…I held on to while in sec school is gone which is reading. I’m now dull in studies making it one of the things now getting me depressed cause I desperately need to study everything
I make friends…try to be happy but it don’t last
One thing or the other must make them avoid me. Like now I feel so lonely. I keep wondering why I can’t seem to keep a friend that each time I feel like some devil is behind it. Why no one has to understand my temperament
Why must I always be angered easily? Why…..why can’t I get…
I just don’t know how to express my feelings 😢😢😢
Maybe my diary can tell better
Maybe I will live forever a loner..
Maybe I will never be a good team with ppl
Maybe I just have to hide behind my emotions together

I just wonder…is there really someone that will understand?
My life is in a mess?
I want to stop crying for nothing in particular whenever I’m alone.😢