I came into some bad investments and I’m owing my clients about 3 million naira in total. I honestly felt like paying back this money is all needed to feel better, I still do and really hope and pray I can pay my debts but despite all this, I feel this deep sadness to the very core of my being. I feel like nothing we do matters as humans and that even though we work hard and do our best, we are left at the mercy of serendipitous occurrences and even our wins aren’t really wins, they’re just sheer luck. I’ve learnt this through experience and now I don’t feel like living anymore ’cause what’s the point anyway. i cant leave this world on my own terms either because if I do, I go to hell for it, lol… Isn’t this a toasty situation? So, I honestly need to talk to someone, even if its someone who can offer business advice. I cannot leave this world owing people, it’s not my style but even after I pay, what is the point to life? why do anything anymore, why try?
whew! feels good saying all these to someone, atleast someone knows my story.
Anonymous
oh, there’s something they say that reading people’s stories will help you feel better knowing you’re not alone. doesn’t work with me, makes me feel worse cos it proves my theory to be true, we are all at the mercy of sheer luck and it sucks!
Anonymous
Hi reading stories does not make your theory true because not all stories are inline with yours I recommend you reading good stories,stories that have happy ending,stories of love and victories.
Try this time to live for something,life to make a mark,live for essense and trust me you will be scared to take your life.
Good that you are a believer of heaven and hell,I am a very strong one too so we can’t and don’t have the permission to take our lives.cheers
Anonymous
Hi dear, your story is quite similar to mine, I owe almost all my family members and all my friends, you really have a way with words and have truly expressed my issues far more than I could ever have in your story the truth is I don’t feel any desire to make an effort to continue living but when I remember the people I owe and the level of disappointment my death will bring I try to push on but with each passing day it get harder and harder. Really wish I can get out of debt and just end it