Sometimes, I feel I’m too thin or too “anything”
I was talking with a friend once and he helped me realize I have OCD, though I’ve done some research on that before. He kind of convinced me
Last week, I had thoughts of dying. Not killing myself though, dying. I walked through this bush in my school, half-hoping that a snake would come out and do it’s thing on me
I’m scared of and for a lot of things
People talk down on me a lot, therefore I’ve started avoiding people and I just searched something like that and found it could be social anxiety
I do however have a happy childhood and upbringing
It’s people that have affected me and I sometimes wish I was normal “if that can be a thing for me”
I am quite underaged for my level of education and I’m shy too, so people tend to bully me, bodyshame me, talk down on me and so on
I am not doing badly academically though. I’m studying a course I love so much and it sometimes gives me hope and joy
I do enjoy looking at the moon, I find beauty in it
I like watching people dance, though I’m a bit of a dancer myself
I don’t like talking to people, they’re weird, though I’m weirder, I’m sure they consider me weird as well
I take strolls at night ocassionally and I think it helps clear my head a bit
I don’t even understand what I’ve typed, but I honk it’s probably the bravest thing I’d be doing in a while since I’m not even sure this will be anonymous and it’s going to be a bunch of strangers literally reading about all my insecurities……have fun
Anonymous
Hi.its good that you typed its anonymous because your identity is preserved and yes strangers read your story and it remains story to them because your Identity is hidden.
My advice to you is to apply the 20-80 principle in your life,and it simply means enjoy the good part of your life which is probably 20% or more to its fullest(80%)and the bad part which is 80% or less worry about it (20%).and with time you will overcome all your fears,anxiety and worries
Anonymous
I hope so too, thank you🤗🤗