I was born may 5/2000..I was 5yrs when my father’s

I was born may 5/2000..I was 5yrs when my father’s cousin took me to Lagos to live with her and her husband,I lived with them for 10yrs, they took care of me, pay for my education and treated me nicely until when d devil arrive in that home,my cousin as stroke that makes her leg and her hand paralyzed and since then no more peace in that house and I got tired of d way they treated e.g maltreating me, cursing me, making me to know am not there biological child e.t.c being a child I was emotional depressed cos am always thinking of killing myself or going back to my parent, until when I clock 15yrs,I was in jss3 third term after my BECE exam I went home and I got into trouble with one of my house help!!my cousin and her husband insist on returning me to my real parent,I was happy thinking that am done suffering and still unhappy in other way cos my parent lives in somewhere in Ekiti state Nigeria,my cousin return me to my parent as expected,my real father is old and my mother looks still young but they are not together,I started living with my mom infact that was when d worse started happening to my life cos my mom doesn’t care about me ,she sees me as nothing so I drop out of school cos am a ulcer patient and my dad is too old to sponsor me,so at 16yrs I started working as a house help so that I can live my life fortunately I was able to make #200k at age 18,I rented an apartment,I started a little business (male/female underwears),19yrs I took NECO exam which I pass even though it’s affect my business am still very happy cos it’s was successful,at 2020 I did my jamb before d Corona virus pandemic and I also made it,but d Corona virus pandemic really affected my business cos I feed with d money I made earlier before d pandemic.
I started my business again after d pandemic but no sales ,everything is not going smoothly for me until this year (2021) I gained admission into Ekiti state university and everything turned upside down again cos my parent especially my mom is not ready to help me, nobody in my family to help and am about losing d admission and if I lose this admission am going to kill myself cos I don’t know my essence of me being alive…pls someone should pls talk to me