From a very young age, I had an elder cousin who bullied me every time and made it very clear that I was very ugly, and she always compared one of my age mate cousins to me. saying my cousin was better than me in everything.
I got to secondary school and some people again took pleasure and always made me feel bad, I then start to have this thought that I might be ugly. I got to university and some girls also found pleasure in making me feel bad about myself and worsening my self-esteem.
Now, I don’t like social gathering and I prefer to isolate myself; I fear I might be suffering from body dysmorphophobia disorder.
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I am sorry you had to deal with such unhealthy experiences. You need to heal and forgive this your cousin also; forgive everyone who made you feel bad about your look and work on getting/building your confidence.
Remember, no one can make you feel inferior without your consent; stop acknowledging or living by their terms. Confront your cousin if you need to, tell her the impact of her words in your life.
Try to seek therapy if you feel you need assistance to overcome these emotions you are dealing with. Also, engage in social activities more, try to start small. This will also help you build your confidence.
You are amazing and don’t let anybody tell you otherwise.