Hi I need to let this go. I started masturbating

Hi
I need to let this go. I started masturbating at a very young age. I don’t know how I found out about it or what lee my hands to touch myself but I started doing it and it felt soooooo good. I continued obviously. My mum caught me a few times and I’ll stop for a moment then I’ll ho ahead with it later on. One day while i was showering I got to know how nice a shower head feels when placed right and with te right power. That carried on for years. I later found out about porn. Just looking for different ways to satisfy my curiosity and unfortunately I found one. I’ve struggled with porm and masturbation for so long. At first it was just pure pleasure but now it’s an addiction. And I want to stop for good. I want so many people to read this even though I’m anonymous. I want to stop so 8 had to tell someone. Also most times I feel lonely. I feel the need to get validation from someone else. I feel the urge to push people away. To be ashamed of how I look and to live according to social norms and I honestly can’t do it anymore. It’s easier said than done but one day this year by His grace I’ll be there.