There’s this girl I met 2018, we like each other and started dating. Things was smoothly at first, during our first few months of dating everything was fine and I loved her. She had a boyfriend but he wasn’t around. I didn’t mind and we were cool with it,After sometime it, she started behaving strange. she doesn’t want me to come close to her, hold her, hug her, cuddle with her or kiss her. I was doing everything for her including all her bills. That time I was having a little funds so I could support her in everything. Got her a new phone and later upgraded. We are both girls but she’s older. she said, she wanted our relationship should be secret, that no one should know. A day I joke with her about telling a silbing of mine,, she picked up a fight with me.. As time goes on, she doesn’t want me to be with any guy because she was thinking I won’t love her enough, so I didn’t because we were planning a future together. She was talking to other guys and I wasn’t complaining. Our second year together we were having issues here and there most times because of money, I still pay the bills just that I’m not having extra money for travels,and other things.. She always want me to respect her always, why she doesn’t even respect me because I’m younger.she met a guy doing our second year together and things change. for 2 yrs with her I didn’t date any guy/girl or cheated on her. she checks my phone to see if I’m talking to someone always but never let me check hers. we did had fights and quarrel during these years,, but Im always apologizing even when she’s wrong, because I don’t keep grudges.. I’m not a perfect person but I was trying all I could to show her what I feel and know about love. our second year together she met her guy, she yells at me, when I told her I didn’t like the guy and was always picking up fights with me, when she and the guy started dating. when she’s with him, she doesn’t pick my calls or chat me up.She started giving me ill treatments and she changed completely. she doesn’t want me to come close to her anymore, I can’t hug her, kiss her, hold her hands or even cuddle with her, she sees fault in everything I do, even when I’m trying to amend after our fights. she does things that makes me get jealous and expect me not to say a thing about it. she starred spending more time with this guy and ever had time for me anymore. Most times I see her kissing, holding and cuddling with the guy, the stuff she told me she doesn’t like but doing it with him, that’s kissing, cuddling, hugging, romance and holding hands with him. I do feel hurt and jealous but when I try talk to her about it, she picks up a fight with me, that I’m blabbing and complaining too much. And it went on like that, everyday fights, no peaceful conversations and she barely met this guy under 3months, and she just throw me away that has been here with her for 2 yrs like I was nothing, she knows I loved her so much that I couldn’t just let go and will always forgive her, so she treated me like nothing.
Things just kept on going that way, I feel into depression most times, I was lost and confused. I was trying to make things work again but nothing was working. I thought she loved me and was happy with me, and I feel like I’m with a stranger once again. She broke up with the guy after some few months but she’s in other relationship with a guy.
I tried breaking up few times with her but couldn’t because she told me she wants to be with me. But here I sit seeing her giving her attention to some other guys. While I keep hoping she loves me.
She doesn’t tell her how she feel about me, or love me, I’m the one always expressing my feelings, always asking her she’s doing. I’m the one always checking up on her and doing all the stuff. I got tired because it wasn’t easy for me, while she wasn’t putting effort. she’s always cold towards me, pouring her anger at me, when other persons get her upset, she faces me with it. She’s never in a good mood, and now I can’t afford all the bills, so things just get worst. she doesn’t care to know how I feel like I’m not human.
Now I’m just filled with pains and heartbreak loving this someone that I don’t know what she feels for me
I know I’m not perfect neither is she, and I’m not looking for perfection. I love her with her flaws and imperfections.
I have my own issues and problems, I got flaws too
