I have two boyfriends and I am not happy about it.

I have two boyfriends and I am not happy about it. My first boyfriend has another girlfriend which I am aware of because he told me. He also told me he told her about me. He has known his other girlfriend for a very long time but got to know me few months ago so basically, he’s dating two women. He told me he is not happy about it but that what he feels for me is really strong that he feels this connection between us. I feel the exact same way for him. I love him with all my heart and I feel this strong connection between us too. A kind of connection I have never felt with any man. It got to a point in our relationship that I got fed up with being the other woman in his life and I broke up with him. He never wanted the break up but I thought it would be best for both of us. Not long after our breakup, I got into another relationship with a promising young man who is ready to settle down with me. Decided to give this new guy a space in my heart but I knew fully well that I still love my ex so much. The breakup really messed with my senses that I started doing things without thinking. I just knew that I needed him back in my life. To cut the story short, I got back together with my ex. I still love him very much and I still feel so strongly that we are meant for each other. I still feel very much attached to him. But the reason why I broke up with him in the first place is still very much there. The other woman he is not ready to leave. He doesn’t want to leave her and doesn’t want to leave me either. He knows am dating another guy now because I told him. He was clearly hurt and even though he didn’t really say but I know he wants me to end what I have with the new guy. I can do that but the problem is will doing that make him mine alone?. He is not ready to leave the other woman because according to him, both of them have come a very long way. I know he loves her a lot and I know he loves me too. Basically, am dating both men now. I still love the first guy so much and I want to spend my life with him but am scared he would choose his other girlfriend over me someday and then this new guy is really sweet and wants to marry me and I like him but its not love. Its not like what I feel for the first guy. At the same time, I don’t wanna lose him. Am really confused, I don’t know what to do. I need advice. I know sooner or later I will have to stick with just one man because the whole idea of double dating is really troubling me. Please I really need advice