I’m considered the black sheep of the family. I. feel my mom hates me. I get angry easily, keep to myself from my family to avoid them (my own way of avoiding troubles and outburst). The 3rd born of five sisters from small I’ve been called ugly and stubborn even now mentally unstable and negative words tend to take a toll on me. I just don’t want to have an outburst.
I’m the second born and daughter, I don’t know what I did so terribly wrong, I am not really the most respectful in the house, but my siblings are all rude brats but somehow anything I do doesn’t get by them. they have everything that transpired between me and them in their head, but I forgive them easily whenever they wrong or offend me, but they’ll never forgive me, instead It’ll be escalated X10 especially by all. Right now, I have nowhere to go, and I am tired of all this. What do I do?
I accepted that I will never be enough to them no matter how I try. I felt a bit at peace after acknowledging that. So, I’m living my life unbothered now. I greet them (parents and big sister) then I do my thing. I think I’m in that stage where I feel numb to everything but I’m grateful for that.