I’m considered the black sheep of the family. I. feel my mom hates me. I get angry easily, keep to myself from my family to avoid them (my own way of avoiding troubles and outburst). The 3rd born of five sisters from small I’ve been called ugly and stubborn even now mentally unstable and negative words tend to take a toll on me. I just don’t want to have an outburst.
I’m the second born and daughter, I don’t know what I did so terribly wrong, I am not really the most respectful in the house, but my siblings are all rude brats but somehow anything I do doesn’t get by them. they have everything that transpired between me and them in their head, but I forgive them easily whenever they wrong or offend me, but they’ll never forgive me, instead It’ll be escalated X10 especially by all. Right now, I have nowhere to go, and I am tired of all this. What do I do?
I accepted that I will never be enough to them no matter how I try. I felt a bit at peace after acknowledging that. So, I’m living my life unbothered now. I greet them (parents and big sister) then I do my thing. I think I’m in that stage where I feel numb to everything but I’m grateful for that.
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I’m sorry to hear that you’re currently experiencing a difficult situation within your family. Feeling like an outsider can be quite challenging. It’s commendable that you have managed to find a coping mechanism by accepting the circumstances and choosing to live your life without letting it bother you.
It is okay to seek help from a mental health professional, such as a therapist or counselor, to address any emotional or mental health concerns. They offer a safe environment for you to delve into their emotions, gain insight into their feelings, and develop effective coping mechanisms. Their expertise is particularly valuable when navigating complicated family dynamics.
Additionally, it is important to prioritize self-care activities that bring joy and relaxation. Engaging in hobbies, exercising, reading, or spending time with supportive friends can contribute to your overall well-being. Taking care of your mental and emotional health becomes even more crucial during challenging family situations.
Consider having an open and honest conversation with your family about your feelings, if you feel comfortable doing so. While immediate resolution may not always be achieved, it can create an opportunity for understanding and eventual change. Also, focusing on personal development and growth can be beneficial. This may involve pursuing education, career goals, or personal interests, as investing in oneself can contribute to a sense of fulfillment and purpose.
It is important to remember that you deserve to be treated with respect and understanding. If your current living situation becomes too difficult, explore options for creating a more supportive environment. This can be done by establishing new boundaries or seeking external support.