We’ve been dating for a year and 5months now but w

We’ve been dating for a year and 5months now but we still never really understand each other which I think I do but he does not understand me cuz he actually hate correction and won’t listen he thinks I am becoming his leader once I try to correct him . That is not even the problem the pro is that he does not care about my feeling and claim to love me more than he loves his mom . He loves to says old and awful words to me to make him feel better when we have issues which I so much despise I would never say those things to nobody not even a bad friend and he enjoys saying it to make him feel better then beg me later this makes me think he is taking me accepting his apology every time for granted and it makes me regret leaving my ex for him 😭😭 he his the worst have ever dated and the one I love the most. He feeds me cuz am still a student and my mom is not rich so i stayed with him cuz his place is close to school. I can’t survive without him for now which I think is making him feel superior. Before I gained admission I had a work and I put in the table when needed but now I don’t have he does everything and uses it against me 😭 he already told me his going to get tired of saying sorry every time which means he’s going to give up on the relationship and I don’t want it ever cuz I love him so much . Now what I think is the prob between us is that he do not care about my feeling when before he talks but once I take it up and let him knows I don’t like what he said he would say I love argument and he his tired of saying sorry every time meanwhile he would know when he said bad things but would act as if it was a joke once I turn it into argument he curse me and have never done that once to him not even by mistake he do not do those things when I was working I guess that because I now I depend on him
Here is an example of what do happens
My friend came over and my bf dad was dre with us and dad started and said my friend and I look alike but I am more beautiful so my friend jokingly said it was a lie my bf response to it was that no my friend is more beautiful 😟 I know it was a joke but I am a Yoruba girl you know ones mind even when u joke I was hurt by that word and my mood changed immediately even my friend notice and said I should let it go but he has this one attitude of shouting at me and bringing attention when he sees pple with us I think he thinks by that they will know he is a man which is just a man and not a real man he started shouting that day that it was a joke what is my problem until his dad shut him up and begged me . That went here is another ; my friend came yesterday and we were joking then then my friend noticed I changed where I do put my bags and I answered yes he does not like where I put them so I changed their location the next things his Goan say is that don’t mind your friend she is not neat 😣 what ?🤷‍♀️😳 me ??? Immediately he looked at my face and I asked him y dd he look at me he said he wanted to know my expression that is he knows what he said was bad my friends said another thing to change the topic but I was really hurt that I just kept smiling they both know that meaning of that smile and then my friend said you do count things forget it 😉 she knew that was bad to say in i presence too . Well I didn’t make it and issue not when she is thier I don’t do that in presence of pple
I was really hurt because to me I thought I was doing my best I , I do every need when it’s needed all is do is to make money I do the washing and cleaning I do the laundry make the food even when am sick and having mensural cramps he does nothing and our place never stinks 😣
To him he was joking but he does not think about how am going to feel before saying things not in presence of my friend am tired of shifting his attention to my feeling but he does not care he thinks am making his life miserable am tired 😭 WHAT SHOULD I DO??