I hate my life and I loge being alone . I didn’t really grow up in an environment were there’s like a happy vibe so I’m always sad like I’ve never been happy. I overdose on like any drugs not cocaine but like pain killers and drugs I just take just to clear my head. I always feel alone even when surrounded by thousands of people 24/7 I’m just never happy . And I believe that I don’t deserved to be loved and I also don’t believe in love well that one is to be blamed on someone tho. I just really need someone who gets me . The thing is that I’m there for everyone when they need advice and help and if the table turns I’m alone ; like nobody is there. When people ask me if I have friends I say no I just say I have people I vibe with and they get offended but it’s the truth if I ask my “friends” for my favorite color they don’t know so what other point do I nwws. I’m just tired of never being happy and wanted . I hate saying it but I just want to be happy for one day only and I’m good . When people ask me what I want to be I say happy but they laugh or I say a strong independent person who needs nobody
My life sucks but I’m used to it
I don’t even know if I should send it in but since ill be anonymous so I guess I can
